Thursday, January 27, 2011

"You're Worth It"

I needed to hear that. (and a few times)

It's amazing to me how people can be used to say just the right things - at the right time, even when you don't know that they need to be said. Their words are used to strike the chore of you. I'm so thankful for relationships! And the fact that we need them!!

I'm so thankful for the people in life that you trust enough to be honest with you, to take care of you with their words - so what they say takes root! I'm so blessed with "good roots" right now! Great conversations!!


"You don't scatter - you gather" love that! Thank you for your words!!

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Direction

starts with a step. 

you don't have to know the end result to take the first step - you just need to follow the direction as it's presented. 

I tend to want to control things in my life.  To know where I'm going and what the end result will be.
But that's not necessarily where I should be.

I'm learning about trust.  Trusting God's direction for my life. 
He knows the steps I need to take.
He takes them for me.
It may be cliche to think of the footprints in the sand - but that picture comes to my head.
I don't really know the poem - and I don't really want to look it up, to post it here... I can just see the picture in my head. 

It starts off with two sets of footprints... and then they dwindle to one set of footprints. 

Sometimes we think that those are OUR footprints and we're alone.  But it is really where God is holding us.  He's carrying us. He is bringing us through. 

I want to be held and carried to go in the direction that He wants me to go.

He has designed each of us with gifts and abilities to bring out the best in each other.  To walk with each other and encourage each other.  I am so thankful for the opportunities in my life and that I don't have to control or manipulate a situation to go the way I want it to go.  I can just take the first step and trust.  I can walk next to and with my Lord and know that when I NEED to be carried - he will gladly hold me. 

And when I need direction. 
He will give it and I'll gladly receive it.

I am about to go through big transitions again and I am in a place where I can ONLY trust! 

It's a safe place to be!

Friday, January 21, 2011

{7 days}

in the hospital.

i was there.  not by choice.
but he chose to stay by my side.

he chose to stroke my hair and pray over me as test were done to me that no one would want to watch.
he stayed over in my room with my mom waking anytime i made a noise to make sure i was alright.
he put lotion on my hands so i felt taken care of and was comfortable.
he made me smile when i wanted to cry.
he decided to trust God with my life and our future.
he REALLY got to know the people closest to me 

he stayed by my side for 7 days.
he was there when he could have left.

he is my best friend.
he is the love of my life.
he is family.

Thank You {Z}.  You have changed my life.
i don't know if i can tell you how much you mean to me. but i'll try



Monday, January 17, 2011

a thought

{Love doesn't need a reason to give.  You just give.}

when {comfort} is gone

I had a great conversation today that has sparked this blog.

I know I haven't been here in a while and it may be time to start blogging again...  I'm not sure why I've gone through such a dry spot in writing... but I MAY be back.  I am excited to write my thoughts {erase them} and then write them again... Again.

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A letter to a best friend.

Dear Friend.

{Many times we can see REALITY only when COMFORT is gone}.

Our natural tendency is to go toward the things that make us feel good rather than acknowledge where we are truly at.  When there is brokeness in a relationship it is often times not felt until the break occurs and then we want to do everything to keep it together.

Discomfort is not a bad thing to feel.  It is something that is necessary, so we can view reality.  It allows us to take emotion out of a situation and see ourselves - see our loved ones for who they really are.  See a relationship for what it is.  The good. The bad.  The Ugly. The Beautiful.  We can see it for what it is.


{I wrote this on September 23rd - two days before the Hemiplegic Migraine and Small Stroke}  it's crazy to read it.  To see what I was thinking then.  What was to come.  And what is now.

Comfort was definitely gone.  I see life for what it is.  An AMAZING gift!

the things we can't choose

we know the plans that we have for ourselves.

they are plans with out pain.
plans with out trial.
plans with as little confrontation as possible.

they are plans with a ton of smiles.
plans for an {easy} life.
plans that everything will fall into place.

the thing is we can't choose

{I wrote this on September 9th... I'm not sure why I didn't post it - but now I want to post it just as it is}

Distance

absence makes the heart grow fonder.
we've heard so many times.
absence will make your heart grow stronger. 
that's what I'm claiming for your life.


{My Friend}
you will be missed and prayed for from your family here.
we will think of you often. talk of how excited we are for you.
we believe in you.  we believe in the work that God has done in your life and will continue to do.

thank you for your friendship in my life.  for your encouragement to keep growing and blogging along the way.  I promise I will send them as they come.  I wanted to make sure that I sent this one to you...

I hope you read it and know that it's you who has encouraged me to put my thoughts back out there.  Thank you for that!  For being strong for me and with me through some of my hardest times! 

I love you.  We love you! 
it's not goodbye - it's see you soon!