Sunday, November 29, 2009

{Sisters}

sisters. there were never such devoted sisters.

I have always loved my sister more than I can say {and my brother}

as I get older I'm seeing the value of {SISTERHOOD} more and more just about everyday! There is something that we're able to offer each other that no one else can!

I am the BIG SIS in our family. I love it. I've always wanted a BIG SIS in my life. I've had older friends come and go that I've looked up to. They come. and then They go. The last year and a half has been an amazing time for me - getting to have an older sister. Someone who is a bit further along the road than I am. Has a bit more experience. Someone who calls me out and holds me accountable to the things that I say I want to do.

It has been an awesome addition to my life. Getting to be the little sis.

I am blessed by all the women in my life. Both blood related and family through life!

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

will you sit with me

{IN MY MESS}

when something {fun} is going on it's easy to join each other.

But what about in the mess of life? What about in hurt. pain. sorrow. What about in depression. exhaustion. sickness. What about in the times when I don't have anything to give back? In the times when I'm so worn out I can't communicate it? It's just seen by the reality in life. My room is a mess, laundry is not done, dishes piled up.


I'm writing this about myself - yes - but also for all of us. To be ABLE to ask our loved ones "Will you sit with me in my mess?" When life is not perfect. When I don't want to smile. When I'm having a rough time. Will you BE HERE with me physically?

I've realized that I do just about everything better with someone by my side. In the room. We don't even have to be talking or doing anything ... just in the same space. SO this means that I tend to neglect the things that I NEED to do for myself - to take care of myself - because I'd rather be with people.

I was blown away talking to my bro... at his willingness to join me in my mess.... he suggested {because we're states away from each other} to both be on SKYPE and just have it on... we wouldn't even have to talk - we can when we want to - but it'll be our equivalent to being in the same room. Just hanging out. Being there. Sitting in each others' mess!

I thought, "Suzy - just be a grown up and deal with stuff on your own. BUCK UP" but then I thought, "WHY?" We were designed to need community. We grow so much through letting people see the vulnerable and the mess. Why put on a mask of perfection. When life is not perfect? It's not meant to be perfect!

So... I'm getting through my mess - if you'd like to join me in it. You're more than welcome... OR invite people to sit with you in your mess.

Saturday, November 21, 2009

TAKEN

My sister and I had no clue what we were getting into when we rented this movie a few months back. This movie rocked my world! I saw it on sale this week and HAD to own it... to remind me of a few things.

The biggest thing that struck me from watching this movie {it literally STRUCK me like someone hitting me over the head with a 2x4} is God's love for us and His pursuit of our hearts, our lives.

I've known His pursuit so many times through out life. He'll stop at nothing until I'm safe in His love and protection. He will take down anything out to harm me. He thinks of me as his little girl. He loves me!

Watching this movie and hearing about the Human Sex Trafficking - going on RIGHT NOW has changed me. It moves me. I'm so pissed off ... a righteous anger. One that NEEDS to move me to action! As I write - my heart is beating out of my chest with such an ache... for what is going on right now. Human Trafficking is at the largest numbers NOW in all of history. Most people just don't know about it - or forget about it - or feel like we can't do much.

Knowledge is the START to any change!

Here are 2 sites that I've visited if you'd like to know more about Human Trafficking:

www.thea21campaign.org
www.ijm.org

OH - and rent - or buy {TAKEN} I hope it rocks your world like it did mine!

We CAN make a difference - we have to start somewhere! Stand up for injustice - whatever that looks like in YOUR world!

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

people watching {endearing love}

I was sitting in Barnes and Noble today editing Sr. Pictures and saw something so beautiful. Something small. But so heart warming.

An elderly couple sat with their daughter having lunch, sipping coffee, enjoying each others' company. As they were getting ready to leave the husband/father cleared the table for {his girls} and then asked {his girls} if they wanted him to take their 2 shopping bags out the car.

Something so little. But so meaningful. The 2 bags put together were literally smaller than my purse!! It was endearing to see his concern for them. He just wanted to make sure they were taken care of.

I need to edit more at Barnes and Noble. Free internet and GREAT people watching. I'm still smiling from it.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

forgotten how good

First Knight is.

I need to remember to change my "Favorite Movie". I always say, "Runaway Bride" is my favorite because she needs to "figure out how SHE likes her eggs...". But RB has nothing on First Knight. It's such a perfectly romantic movie and is now {officially} or maybe always has been "my favorite movie"

Thought it deserved a blog.

Here are a few of my favorite quotes:

Guinevere: I'm not to be had for the wanting.

King Arthur: God uses people like you, Lancelot. Because your heart is open. You hold nothing back. You give all of yourself.
Lancelot: If you knew me better, you would not say such things.
King Arthur: Oh, hey, I take the good with the bad, together. I can't love people in slices.

King Arthur: For the first in my life, I wanted what all wise man say can't last; what can't be promised or made to linger any more than sunlight. I don't want to die without having felt its warmth on my face.

King Arthur: Lancelot, just a thought. A man who fears nothing is a man who loves nothing; and if you love nothing, what joy is there in your life? I may be wrong.

Lancelot: I dare not kiss so lovely a lady. I have but one heart to lose.

Guinevere: If there is any honor in you, promise me never to do that again.
Lancelot: I don't know about honor. But I promise you, I won't kiss you again till you ask me to.

King Arthur: You risked your life for another. There is no greater love.

Malagant: Self-sacrifice is very easy. It's having to sacrifice someone you love that puts your convictions to the test.

King Arthur: Only a fool wants what he can not have.

King Arthur: There are laws that enslave men, and laws that set them free.

King Arthur: May God grant us the wisdom to discover right, the will to choose it, and the strength to make it endure.

King Arthur: This is the heart of Camelot, not these stones, not these timbers, these palaces and towers. Burn them all and Camelot lives on, because it lives in us. Camelot is a belief that we hold in our hearts.

King Arthur: What we hold to be right, and good, and true IS right and good and true for all men. Otherwise we're just another robber tribe.

Guinevere: I want to marry you. Not your crown, not your army. Just you.

King Arthur: There's a peace only to be found on the other side of war. If that war should come I will fight it!

Guinevere: Love has many faces. I may look on you differently, but not with less love.

Guinevere: I only know one way to love my lord, and that is body and mind and soul.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

when it rains.

IT POURS.

it's been a while since I've blogged.

I'm thankful for being busy. But this last weekend was rediculous. Seems like in every area of life there were things NEEDING my attention. I got 10 hours of sleep in 4 days.


I just want to hibernate for a bit.

Monday, November 2, 2009

direction

When you think you can. YOU WILL.
When you think you can't. YOU WON'T.

because
You'll never stop going in the direction of your thoughts.

{just a thought}

Sunday, November 1, 2009

{call me old fashioned}

the DATING GAME has changed.

{I had this guy leave me a voicemail at work, so I called him at home, and then he emailed me to my BlackBerry, and so I texted to his cell, and now you just have to go around checking all these different portals just to get rejected by seven different technologies} - quote from He's Just Not That Into You.


we have the world at our fingertips. SO MANY ways to communicate - but in that, have we lost {TRUE} communication?

Interpersonal. Face to Face.

OR where there isn't the interpersonal communication or desire for it - does that just mean that He or She is JustNotThatIntoYou
?

SO.. if you're into someone:

a text does not = a conversation.
an email or FB message does not = quality time.
FB stalking does not mean that you know someone.

these things are all nice. but shouldn't replace honest forms of getting to know people.

I've had so many conversations with my girlfriends about how much the dating game has changed. My married friends just giggle at the conversation and say, "I'm SO GLAD I don't have to deal with that" {HAHA thank you so much!} and my single gf's role their eyes because we're going through the same thing... frustrating.

If you've read the book or have seen the movie {He's Just Not That Into You} it's a great book to read both Male/Female if you're single. Girls it's an honest look at if a guy isn't into you - he'll do certain things - so don't waste your time - unless you choose to. Guys - it's an honest look at what you're doing and what you mean by what you do - so girls know not to waste their time on you.

When a guy is into a girl - he WILL pursue her. There is nothing that will hold him back from pursuing her. So many guys have said this. I agree! I've seen it. I've known it.


With the {game changing} does that mean that the pursuit changes?

no. No. BIG FAT. NO. It takes a lot to put yourself out there - but when you're into someone you just do it.

Call us old fashioned but the proof of the desire is in the pursuit. The things we really want in life we go after and we make happen.


So

IF you're into someone.

A text. Emailing. FB messaging. IMing.
all Great.

but do not = pursuit.


*If that's the only form of communication you have because of extenuating circumstances... that changes the game too*