Good Intentions

ironic.

I was getting ready this morning. Thinking. "What was I meaning to Blog about yesterday...?"

I started going through a list of things that may jog my memory and eventually came to, "I think I was thinking of the things that I mean to do... um... {light bulb noise} OH YAH... having Good Intentions and where it leads you!" Whew so thankful for a memory that still for the most part works. I had to laugh because I had every INTENTION of writing down a few thoughts on Good Intentions.

so here I am with a head full of THOUGHTS about Good Intentions. Trying to live my life Intentionally. But isn't that the thing?? Don't you either LIVE your life INTENTIONALLY or not? Because if you're not - you're just living with Good Intentions. You're either one or the other...

I've always used the word TRY. But I feel a change in me. I either do something and accomplish it or I don't. There's nothing wrong with black and white. I think that generally speaking we like to {TRY} because we don't like to fail. We can't handle failure. Or maybe we just don't WANT to handle it. We don't want to acknowledge that we CAN fail. That failure is actually a good thing. It brings you closer to accomplishment.

What is wrong in a day with saying - "I failed my to-do list" instead of "I tried to everything and couldn't" or what about making our TO-DO lists doable. Bite sized pieces ... not chomping down on more than we can chew... so we DON'T fail.

I don't want to live in the land of Good Intentions anymore. {taking that thought further... I WON'T live in the land of Good Intentions anymore} It gets me no where. It brings me to a place that I don't like. I let people down. Instead of building relationships I slowly build a wall up where people will learn they can't depend on me "I MEANT to do that... is not good enough anymore"

It's time for me to LIVE INTENTIONALLY... seeing what I can and can't do. Pushing myself to do more than I thought I could ... but not taking on more than I actually CAN.

where are you sitting with intentions?

a good diffuser

i enjoy the moments that i get to see what i'm made of.

confrontational moments.
when they bring about the best.
when there is a resolution.
when the problem at hand is revealed and dealt with.

when a situation that could blow up is diffused.

i got to be a good diffuser today. i was proud of myself. calling things out for what they are. standing up for myself and my company knowing that we watch out for our customers and do everything in our power to amplify the hard work they do and help them look that much better.

i was thrown under the bus a bit today... but was glad to wear the skid marks because of the end result.

in relationships it's all about team work. putting the other person in front of yourself. whether it's in family relationships. romantic relationships or business relationships. if we are ALL always watching out for the people around us then we will ALL be taken care of.

the thing is ... that's not how most people think. so when you have that attitude as a person or as a company you're left holding what others give you - which isn't always pretty. but it's OUR JOB to do what we can to turn it into something good and beautiful.

i really enjoy days like today when i get to see... in tough situations what i'm made of.

is the goal TRULY to love in all situations and draw out the best in people?? TODAY it was!

you made my day

I just got an email from a friend.
Who told me a little confession.
It made my day!

Ms. Sass.
When you read this.
Know that you bless me!

Love you.

made me smile

So ... I heard an amazingly beautiful accent tonight. I loved it.

This couple was talking in a language that I definitely didn't understand. I found myself wanting to join in the conversation.

When I opened my mouth to say something the only thing that was there to say was, "HOLA", "GRACIAS", "DENADA", "MUCHO GUSTO"

I almost couldn't contain myself. How funny is it that when I hear another language my mind interprets that to speak SPANISH... it is the only other language that I somewhat know... {un poqito}

Needless to say. I didn't open my mouth. I just laughed at myself and enjoyed overhearing the beautiful conversation.

the little things make me smile!

I see my future in His eyes

I have never known this before. To look at someone and be able to see not specifically my future and what it holds... but that no matter what it holds I see the desire to do it together. to partner through out life.

His eyes mirroring my future blows me away.

the Lord knows His plans for me.

Plans to prosper. To give Hope of a Future. They are plans to Build Up not to tear down. Plans to bring Beauty for ashes. Strength for fear. Gladness for mourning. Peace for despair. Plans to Believe and Draw out the best of any/all situations. To lead when there is no leader. To speak words of life. To bring Justice and Mercy. To Cry with brokenhearted. To Give where there is need. To Love where there is hate. To bring Sight where people are blind. To give a Voice to the unheard. To Give My Life.

I see my future in HIS eyes
thank you that your word is true.

the last 10%

Think of your last 10 conversations. REAL conversations that you've had- not just {hello/goodbye}. In those conversations... were you able to share everything that you wanted to? Most of the time we don't. Most of the time... even with the people closest to us we only share about 90% {at best} of our thoughts...

Pastor Darin - our lead pastor at SCC talked about this a few weeks ago. He's got about 5 - 10 people that when they get together they are 100% REAL with each other... They ask for THE LAST 10%.

I don't think that we're meant to share 100% with EVERYONE {that would be exhausting}. But we each should have those few that we GIVE the last 10% to.

We're not typically {bare} with each other. We don't typically share {everything}. the good/bad, ugly/beautiful. Why is that?

FEAR?

of rejection. hurting someone's feelings. looking stupid. being too pushy or opinionated. not trusting people with who we are - our WHOLE selves. having feelings not reciprocated. meddling. opening a can of worms you don't want opened. the future.

...Whatever the reason most of us stay with our comfortable 90%...

Last night I asked for the last 10%. It was awesome to get everything that we were thinking out! I loved what the last 10% was that was given.

What is the last 10% in your life that you WANT...

to say.
to do.
to be.

will you give it?

{Counting to 100}

by Matt Wertz.

Have you heard of him? Most people haven't. I fell in love with his music about 7 years ago or so. Sometimes things are just better said through a song. Here are a few lines that I LOVE from this song...

{You go hide. I'll come seek. Maybe someday in the middle we just might meet. I'll be counting to 100 and I promise I won't peek. So you go hide. I'll come seek.}

Since I first heard the song ... and really Every time I hear this song I think, "I want someone to think this of me." I want him to find me. to seek ME.

A week ago I had an amazing meal with an amazing person. He put together a CD with songs that reminded him of me. {totally how I communicate - someone has always said it better than I can... SOMEWHERE}

THIS WAS THE 2nd SONG ON THE CD.
I was seriously floored.
I don't know the last time I smiled that big... I couldn't believe that he knew Matt Wertz.

And he found MY song.

baby it's COLD outside

I've belted this song out at Good-Bye more times than I'd like to admit...

I wish I knew all the words to the song - but I guess the joy of adding my own words would be taken away then!

stay warm out there